December 2011 began the journey of what testimony means and more importantly what sharing a testimony means.  This verse comes to the forefront, Mark 5:19  “Go home to your friends and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.” The Lord unequivocally has had much, much mercy on me throughout my life.  More than I feel that I deserve, yet he picks me up time and time again and says come, my daughter, take a walk with me.  We walk down roads uncomfortable for me, yet he walks beside me with a quiet, gentle grace, cloaked in protection and supreme comfort.
On December 28, 2011 this is what he spoke to my heart:
Your testimony is the beginning.  Come closer and see what comes.  Your testimony is truth.  It is where it all began and where it will also continue.  Sharing will be perfume to the nostrils of your father.  Rejoicing over the loss of your soul to your foe, but more importantly leading more sheep that are lost and wandering in the forest of destruction or drowning in the river of despair along the pilgrims road to a path pointed at the cross, to the father.  There alone will they find comfort.  You may capture their heart but for a moment, remember to keep walking. Show love, pure, innocent love and grace abounding to those in need. Start there and the message will come bounding upon your heart.
This was the beginning of a journey that has led to sharing vulnerability and truth not for my sake, not for my soul, not for me at all.  But for my Jesus who saved me, restored me, and who continues to walk me to the cross daily.